"Now if you are going to win any battle you have to do one thing. You have to make the mind run the body. Never let the body tell the mind what to do. The body will always give up. It is always tired in the morning, noon, and night. But the body is never tired if the mind is not tired." - George S. Patton

Monday, January 11, 2010

Maybe I actually can do this!

Okay! Just updating after today's run. I went running through downtown Puyallup with one of my best (and very thin) pals, Denise. It helped me a lot to have a partner! I honestly do not know the distance of our run today, but we were active for 35 minutes total and jogged for AT LEAST 10-15 minutes straight! Some people might think that isn't much but for me it was HUGE. I was sweating so bad I looked like I just took a shower. It was beautiful. It was empowering! I am seriously going to do this!

On another note, I tend to over analyze things quite a bit. Mostly my life. I think I may have realized that certain important people in my family have brought me down, quite a bit. I have been raised to have the belief that once you become a mother you are not important and you ONLY worry about the kids. I am important though, Damn it!
Today for instance. I talked to one of my family members who gets mad if I don't talk to her on the phone every single day. I told her about my plans to change the way I live my life and run a marathon some day. All I heard was a sigh and then a frantic, " What are you going to do with the children?!" Like I am some kind of idiot or something. Obviously Andy will watch them. She proceeded to talk down to me and ask me if he lost his job or something. Seriously? I will go running after work. etc. etc. etc.
It's this kind of talk I have had to deal with my entire life. Worse now that I am a mom. No body ever cares how I am doing.. they just want to make sure I am around to make the kids happy. Which I am. They are still and always will be my numero unos. I just can't understand why it is so hard for anyone to care about me? I have probably done it to myself in one way or another.. it is just something to complain about, I guess.

Anyway. We will see if I am sore tomorrow. If not.. I'm hitting the streets again! :) I know that probably no one is reading this but it feels good to have something to publish that I am proud of. I'm doing this. It's all happening.

4 comments:

  1. I'm reading it! I'm kind of weirdly obsessed with reading people's blogs...

    Also, maybe this website will help when it comes to eating better!
    www.caloriecount.com

    It's free, and it not only tracks your progress but it also grades you on how you eat! (ie, not just calories, but types of food, etc).

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  2. Thanks!! I am afraid to start on one of those sites. I don't like being told I can't have ranch dressing on everything! lol. Hey! Are we still on for coffee saturday morning?

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  3. YES!!! Where/when? I will come to Puyallup, I really miss it!

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  4. I just started reading your blog after seeing you comment on the Fitness page on Facebook. Let me tell you that the best thing you can do for your kids is to be the best you, you can be. Who wants to grow up with an unhappy mom? Keep it up because by bettering yourself you are bettering your whole family!

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